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4 MONTHS ……

I’ll never forget when my mom
Told me she had cancer . How hard it hit. I was fresh back from Atlanta . Every possible way to beat it failed. Il never forget when they told her she had 4 months to live. I was in dis belief . There was no way such a beautiful , young person could be given a such a small amount of time to live. Her first words to me ….. JANELLE … she knew I was gonna be ok . But my daughter. She loved my daughter. And it killed her inside to no she wouldn’t watch her grow up . I remember when the doctors called a priest because they said she was on her last few days. The fluid took over her lungs. After the priest left and all my family said there goodbyes to her , a doctor I never saw before came in the room . I have an idea he said . He proposed that we should insert tubes on each side of her lungs, drain the fluid and help bring her back . He said it would be temporary . But he didn’t think it was her time . Everyone was against it. My Lil bro told me he supported my choice . I literally had to fight with everyone . All she wanted
Was to get out of that hospital . She had went in when her lungs collapsed and never came out . She spent her b day and everything in there. the procedure worked. It was crazy ! She couldn’t believe when she woke up that they were just gonna let her go . A few days later . She came home . she had tubes around her lungs I had to drain everyday . She came home ! In a matter of fact . She was able to enjoy thanksgiving , Christmas , we even drove her to so cal and let her see her Fam , shit we even went to universal studios .. We celebrated new new years together …. On 1/16/10 she let go . In the comfort of her own home . It was weird . She was alive . Up and walking , laughing , living and doing what she needed to do before she left. I’m glad me & my family got to take care of her . Im glad she got out of that hospital . I’m glad she passed away @ home . I miss her . She was 54 . She was my best friend . Life is short . And we need to enjoy it . Kaiser made a bunch of mistakes ! We can get into all that later … But they fucked up big time ! 4 months though . 4 months . Life’s a trip !

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